What are you reading π, exploring, or creating this weekend? Happy September, friends! ππ₯°π»β₯οΈβοΈππππππ€ππππ¬πβ¨πΎππ²
Iβm mostly sipping coffee βοΈ {maybe Tazoβs Lemon π Loaf tea, later} and loving The Grasmere Journals by Dorothy Wordsworth π₯°.
For a habit is a delight in itself; poor human nature is conscious of the ease that it is to repeat the doing of anything without effort; and, therefore , the formation of a habit, the gradually lessening sense of effort in a given act, is pleasurable.
Charlotte Mason, Home Education, p. 121
My focus areas:
Spiritual: been really trying to keep up with my YouVersion apps Bible readings with friends. However, I decided I needed a slower soak also, so I began the New Testament this week and wow, itβs been so lovely. Just Jesusβ words. Journaling and meditating on it all. Iβm reading a few devotionals and Mary Oliverβs nature poetry has been turning my heart π to my Creator. Iβve been prioritizing spending my quiet time outdoors, too, because it adds so much.
Physical: I was able to get out for a long walk one day and listen to an audiobook. It was wonderful! Hopefully, going again today. I tend to be pretty sedentary, so walks are something I want to make time for. I adjusted my food a lot this week and checked in with my sister each night. I felt very βhangryβ at times and journaled etc to help. Iβm admittedly seeing a few things that are creeping in that I canβt be moderate in. I will be just taking those out of my diet. I know this seems extreme, but for me, it works. Iβm trying something Iβm calling BLE Lite (Bright Line Eating), in which I follow the plan closely with a few planned exceptions. Iβm definitely easing back in as this program is pretty intense and structured. However, I do think I work better with clear boundaries.
Rezoom: The Powerful Reframe to End-the-Crash-and-Burn Cycle of Food Addiction by Susan Peirce Thompson, p.73p. 74Show up for yourself, Amy, by making nourishing, thoughtful meals.
Mental: Iβm trying to chose good books to read and journal/narrate/collage about them. Slowing down to create or discuss calms and soothes my anxiety. I participated in a Zoom book discussion on Anthony Trollopeβs The Belton Estate. I can get too introverted and find myself βhidingβ and I want to challenge myself and grow, not stagnate. Iβm rereading a challenging book about home as a ministry and itβs so good. Iβve been taking naps with my 4 yo occasionally and this makes a huge difference physically, mentally, and emotionally.
Emotional: I took off the week from YouTube and itβs been so nice. Iβm on a year break from Instagram. I enjoy aspects of social media, but I have to balance these delicately otherwise, I personally find myself anxious, discontent, and not present. Naps, nature, walks, etc all contribute to a more balanced emo π€ state for me! π I also did a few creative things this week that filled my cup like collaging, filming book reviews, sending a penpal letter, and writing. I took myself on a coffee date and also picked up a favorite magazine. I want to be careful not to always associate buying things for comfort, because I actually find more genuine peace in the things that cost π² NOTHING. However, occasionally, itβs fun to get a special gift. π
Servanthood: I wonβt be giving a ton of actual real life details here as this is a personal area between me and Jesus, but, I do want to share action steps I want to try. I want to include one or more children in whatever Iβm doing around the house, ie – take a child grocery shopping or take walks with kids sometimes, etc. I want to plan some activities to do WITH kids that arenβt work related. The reality of life here with a big family is we are often working together. Thatβs good, but I also want to do purposeful fun activities occasionally.
Verse Focus for coming week:
β¦His divine power has given to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us by glory and virtue.
from 2 Peter 1:3
So, overall, a good week, and Iβm hopeful! Planning on checking in next week. Thanks for being here. β£οΈβ£οΈβ£οΈ Let me know how you are? Lots of love, Amy π€π²π€
Original Painting by Lore Pemberton. My friend protecting her plants.Image originally from National Geographic 1976.
These three above selections were shared by my friend and this is what I think has been brewing for awhile in my heart, but started coming out as I simmered a bit over them. A collage of bits of letters, ephemera, and poetry for you! β₯οΈπΏ
From the southeast came a steady summer wind that whispered sleepily around the house and on across the island. She could hear the weather report on the radio inside the house. A corner of sunshine edged across the windowsill.
Tove Jansson, The Summerbook, p.27
~Tove~
weird and wacky, yes
brightly thoughtful, I am seen
sun, moomins, and me
~ π²A. M. Pineπ²
What about you? Whoβs art do you feel βseenβ by? Toveβs combination of beautiful writing, bright painting, and whimsical illustration is a feast for me. β₯οΈππΏ
The Golden Circle by Hal Borland, paintings by Anne Ophelia Dowden
There is wonder all around usβ¦
Listeningβ¦my friend recently sang this song and sent me the music video. Iβve had it on loop. Thinking about my lasting influence. What truly will matter when Iβm gone?
Noticingβ¦ little bits here there of life. Forget-Me-Nots β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ Little Free Libraries β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ Bare Feet on Warm Rocks β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ Little Bridges β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ Boys Sleeping in Sun-Soaked Hammocks β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ Tasha Tudor, Moomims, & New Thrifted Cookie Cutters β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ
What are you listening to, reading, watching, & noticing? β₯οΈπ₯°πΏ
Hope this finds you well. Iβm pulling the old βmy brain is so full Iβm going to try and empty it by dumping on my blogβ trick. π€ͺπβ₯οΈ Thanks for listening with your eyes and Iβm sure, heart. πβ₯οΈ Our homeschool year is s-l-o-w-l-y winding down, we still have a field trip and a couple loose threads to tie up. Three GLORIOUS summer months stretch out in front of me full of βGREENING POWERβ as Macrina Wiederkehr writes. More on her later!
Iβve been reading a lot, maybe a bit TOO much ππ€π, excessive amounts of reading escapism and excessive food have been my obsessions when feeling stressed, pressed, and down right exhausted. Iβm declaring yet again popcorn abstinence π , more water & walk therapy, and staying far, faraway from sugar/ flour. I feel so much better when I do so. As for reading choices, I do feel Iβm balancing light & fluffy (Dean Street Press books are my current favorites) with some learning (as a human, woman, Christian, homeschooler, writer, I need to always be learning!) and some hard for just challenging perspective and understanding. I recently finished the heart wrenching Grapes π of Wrath by John Steinbeck and wow, going to be thinking on that one for awhile. Iβm so fascinated by the Great Depression era and the Dust Bowl currently.
The eyes of the whole family shifted back to Ma. She was the power. She had taken control. βThe money weβd make wouldnβt do no good,β she said. βAll we got is the family unbroken. Like a bunch of cows, when the lobos are ranging, stick all together. I ainβt scared while weβre all here, all thatβs alive, but I ainβt gonna see us bust up.
John Steinbeck, Grapes of Wrath
Bittersweet Nightshade ππ€πππ€π
I find myself returning to favorites when stressed so Iβve been listening to Wives & Daughters with the amazing reader Prunella Scales. Itβs included with my Audible account. This is my 3rd time through and there is something just SO comforting about Mrs. Gaskellβs writing. Iβve also watch bits of my current favorite movie π₯ and I adore it. I believe βTotoroβ by Studio Ghibli will calm even a hardened criminal down. π
Iβve also been thinking about my summer reading plans. BookTube {niche YouTube category π€π}has really helped me be a bit more purposeful about my choices, but I have to be very careful to balance that with margin for mood reading. Iβm currently very interested in Native American/Indigenous stories, especially historical fiction/biographies/poetry. I asked for a poetry anthology for my birthday (June is my birth month!) , so hopefully π€π» Iβll be digging into that this summer.? Iβm also super interested in archaeology , geography/geopolitics from a relational or conversational or βlivingβ side. So in other words, not dry. π€ͺπ Do you have any recommendations? Someone mentioned Eric Cline, so I may try his archaeology book.
Iβm also interested in Asian history, creativity memoirs (Iβve read ALOT of these, so Iβm only interested in ones that will blow my mind π) , historical fiction on βside warsβ not the World Wars, a bit burned out on those. Iβm also on a search for authors similar to Maud Hart Lovelace and L.M. Montgomery. I realize the two Mauds are a tough acts to follow, but Iβm looking for sweet family-centric, βlife softeningβ type stories. So far, Iβve enjoyed some D.E. Stevenson, Susan Scarlett, and Molly Clavering. Howβs your reading been going? Any books you are excited about this summer?
In other cheerful news π , Iβve been thinking about these lyrics and how so much of our world and culture is fake & dead β οΈπ. Thereβs a part in the MV, where the artists are with sand, water, wind, fireβ¦and it just touches me deeply about the finiteness of this all. Itβs floating and blowing away. The artist Suga smiles at the flames and as a Christian woman, I want to smile at the hard things of this world, not in denial or despair, but in a realization that itβs the spiritual that really matters. All else is going to be gone. As a pilgrim just passing through this place, I find joy in knowing that the suffering that so many are going through is finite. Catholic poetic and mystic, Macrina Wiederkehrβs book of poetry and short devotions called, βSeasons of Your Heart: Prayers & Reflectionsβ has been so lovely, hopeful, and inspiring, touching on some of these very themes. A Christmas gift from my friend. Iβm hoping to get more of her writings soon.
Iβm the slowest soul to try new apps etc π, but I finally got the Libby app and have been so happy checking out audiobooks and kindle things from the library! Yes, you do have to wait longer, but itβs so convenient and inexpensive. Iβm trying this above manga series via Kindle and the library. How cool is that? Guess what? The manga pages turn the opposite way in Kindle, too! π€―π€£My 4 yo son and I planted some moonflowers after I bought him a book for his birthday about them. I really hope they grow and we can watch them bloom in the evenings! ππβ₯οΈSpeaking of birthdays, our birthday βseasonβ is done here at the end of July and *whispering*, I always sigh in relief. πβ₯οΈ
Do you have βheart homesβ? Iβve been thinking about the places that have really meant something to me over my life. Of course, thereβs big amazing places, like Prince Edward Island and The Lake District, Cumbria π, but smaller, intimate places that Iβve visited that spoke soul-speak straight deep down. I have a few and had a chance to travel to them recently. I also often realize that the place Godβs given me to curl up in currently is a stunning place. Right at my fingertips, right out my door.
Otherwise, hereβs a list that swirling in the gray matter π§ , my love and desire to know more of tamaracks/larches and birches, Julie Cameronβs Walking in This Worldβ, my favorite from her, my penpals, Hetty Feather series I want to check more into, loving the first audiobook, wanting to learn more about watercolors, pen & ink illustrations, thinking and loving Moon Jumpers by Janice May Udry and all the magazines to catch up on. Also, how in the world can I resurrect a floundering writing practice? By writing, of course, Amy. π€―π€ͺπ π€ Iβll leave you with more reading and nature photos, thanks for being here. Please chat with me below! Whatβs on your mind? πβ₯οΈ Till next time, grace and peace through beautiful Jesus to you!
I confess that Iβve had to internally fight to keep my heart calm β₯οΈ and in the moment this Advent season. This past year has been a good struggle for me. This coming to the end of my strength, coming to the end of self, I find of course, Jesus calmly standing beside me, loving me. β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ I picked the words βanticipation & expectationβ for 2022 and wow π― that didnβt play out how I thought it would. ππ But slowly reflecting in this Advent season, Iβm seeing what a gift this year has been. I didnβt realize that what I was anticipating and expecting was something very different than what needed working, kneading in, and cutting away from my heart. π₯Ήβ₯οΈ God is SO faithful.
How are you? How are you holding up? What are some things youβve been thinking on, learning from 2022? β₯οΈ I still not perfectly clear on what Iβm to pull away from my struggles this year, but some things have bubbled to the surface and Iβm slowly working on acknowledging them, trying to reorder affections that are wonky, and really focus on what is important in my life. Iβm praying about my words for 2023 and what things I need to focus on through good habits, focused attention, and quiet listening. Listening to the still, small voice of Jesus and deep, attentive listening to the people in my life. And listening to the whisper of words on the wind, wrangling them into inky encouragement on paper.
My personality and lifestyle needs a healthy balance of habits & structure with a good dose of freedom and openness. It makes for an uniquely delicate dance, keeping a rhythm flowing, yet being open to being human, room for life, creativity, and laughter. Do you struggle finding the right pace for the journey of life, too? Praying for clarity and for faithfulness as we cross over into the new year.
May you have a blessed last few Advent moments and a wonderful Christmastime! π May God give you fresh vision as you look to the new year! Happiest Christmas! β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ Love, Amy
What is inspiring you or bringing you joy currently? Please join me in comments, in your journal, or on your blog!ππ
Iβm grateful today forβ¦
πΏthis quoteπΏ
ββ¦Love watches, and sleeping slumbers not; weary, is not tired; straitened, is not constrained; frightened, is not disturbed; but, like a living flame and a burning torch, it bursts forth upwards and safely over-passes all.β ~Thomas A Kempis
||Psalms 143|| delicious words swirling around me|| first homeschool co-op of the new school year, seeing friends and βmeetingβ new ones in the musicians, artists, and writers we will be enjoying together||my baby sisterβs 30th birthday ||daughterβs excitement over hairdo change and getting ears pierced||celebrating my 20th wedding anniversary||
||golden-tinged Septemberπππ||sonβs excitement about helping friend work in Colorado||beginning Christmas planning|| The Secret of Nightingale Wood by Lucy Strange – enchanting!||P.G. Wodehouse audio books, hilariously ridiculous || βHoney in the Rockβ by Brooke Ligertwood|| βFind Me in the Riverβ by Delirious||an Oswald Chamber quote texted to me from my sister||
||Jesse Ahmannβs instrumental cello on YouTube ||foggy pauses||cool, crisp early morning air, with a hint of autumn||laundry snapping on the line||hubby finding a praying mantis on lawn||hard but good conversations||duvet put back on bed, cool and soft||Amish woodsmoke on the wind||bits of red-tipped sumac peeking around bends in the road||Bull thistle fluff blowing in the air, sunset blazing through it||
||Middle-Earth mornings ||harvest moon shining on my face as I awake from sleep||new tea, cardamom cinnamon coming in the post||letter writing to friends in Canada||homeschool mom chat||autumn stationary perusing||journaling saving my sanity||listing gratitudes helping rightly order my heart||purr of Ghibli, our adore orange tabby kitten||piles of books to try and soak in||
How about you? Anything just really bringing you joy currently? Watching anything good? Reading? Creating? Iβd love to hear. Happy End of Summer, friends. May you get the chance to soak in the remaining warmth and light of the year! πππ Peace & love, Amy πππΎππππΏππ¬π€πβοΈπ«πΎππππβ₯οΈπ€πΏβοΈπ¬ππ€
Cedar Falls Overlook ~ Petit Jean State Park, Arkansas
Iβve been thinking about my blog here and what {exactly} it is I love about it. It has grown into an offering to Godπ more than anythingβ¦gratitude for the generous giving of otherβs words written, a whispered prayer of thanksgiving through photography {a photo often says something words cannot}. Itβs a tangible witness of the sheer love for the gifts of nature, poetry, writing, art ~all from the worldβs well of inspiration. To us, from them, to them, from us. So you could say gratitude + blogger = gratilogger? πΏβ₯οΈπΏβ₯οΈπΏβ₯οΈπΏ How βbout you? Do you ever feel this way also? Do you feel like bursting with all the beauty given to us? Why create? Why give in these ways? From the bottom of my heart, THANK goodness YOU create and give. I need it like air. πβ₯οΈπβ₯οΈ Thatβs all, Happy Saturday!
11. Mr. Kleonβs work has been opening my mind to possibly lately. And thatβs a good thing.
12. Thinking on this quote I read with my 17 yo the other day, βA picture or poem, or the story of a noble deed, βfindsβ us, we say. We, too, think that thought or live in that action, and, immediately, we are elevated and sustained. This is the sympathy we owe to our fellows, near and far off. If we have anything good to give, let us give it, knowing with certainty that they will respond. If we fail to give this Sympathy, if we regard the people about us as thinly small, unworthy thoughts, doing mean, unworthy actions, and incapable of better things, we reap our reward. We are really, though we are not aware it, giving Sympathy to all that is base in others, and thus strengthening and increasing their baseness: at the same time we are shutting ourselves into habits of hard and narrow thinking and living.β ~ Charlotte Mason, Ourselves
12. Thinking about creativity and how sometimes itβs hard to grasp that elusive βthingβ thatβs haunting you and waiting to be born. How birth is beautiful and miraculous, yet itβs earthy, natural, and an everyday occurrence all over the world. These lyrics speak to that and hereβs the music video which has stunning imagery about this tension. {click CC button, top right corner of video for English subtitles}
14. Margin. Modern life is a snowball. Iβm thankful when I remember to stop it and live counterculture for a bit. Run counterclockwise, Amy. One part of this canβt really change though. Relationships. Those you need to keep your toe dipped into.
15. This zany, high energy podcast. An encouraging online friend, Adrienne, recommended me to this resource!
16. Starting enjoying a new Shakespeare play, composer, and especially enjoying this unique artist with my children. So thankful for the moms in my homeschool group for sharing these riches.
18. For photography- snippets of light for dispelling darkness
19. Warmth: fires, slippers, hot showers, hot tea, steamy coffee, and comfy thrifted purple Scotland sweatshirts.
20. Changes of perspective to help me get outside of myself. For coming back to my mountain to climb with newness and freshness, or at least a deep breath. β₯οΈπΏ
Whatβs fueling you? πΏβ₯οΈπΏ Lots of love from the Ridge, Amy ππΏπ