Advent Diaries ~::🎄❄️♥️Pages 9-14 ♥️❄️🎄::~ RED through GRACE ~ {Day 55}

New bowls found thrifting!

~This ‘n That~

peppermint tea, broken glass

child’s giggles, drop of red while grating cheese

secrets wrapped, hearts torn open

enter into His grace chapel with fragments

into His courts with whispered gratitudes

brokenness and coal-stained lips

advent of joy and bloodiness, birthed

in me, sore-hipped, longing woman

Your red shed, my red hands, clean

•A.M.Pine•

Splashes of red
New recipe we made up! Peppermint tea, a little hot water, then two scoops favorite hot cocoa mix, favorite milk, then more hot water, mix! Delicious peppermint cocoa.
Rich reds…red reminds me of grace! ♥️🎄

Advent Diaries ~::🎄❄️♥️Page 8♥️❄️🎄::~ POETRY ~ {Day 54}

I adore Nativity sets. This is my Haitian set. 💟

What is your jam or ‘poetry of life’ currently? A little something bringing you joy and a pause during this can-be-hectic time of year?

~Magazine dates with myself. I take a little cash and go buy a magazine and usually sit by a nature spot (in my car currently 🥶, of course! ) to peruse it. I love the quiet, the pause, and the new freshness of something to look forward to. It’s a wonderful time of contemplation and prayer! 🙏🏻

~Scriptures/poetry/prayer/journaling…my morning routine is such a lovely time to contemplate and set myself on Jesus for the day. A few words of poetry or devotionals plus Scripture under a cozy blanket, mug of coffee, and fairy lights are crucial as I love on/survive 😅the relationships in my life. I journal my way through it all. My favorite poetry currently is Ted Hughes’ Seasons Songs and my friend, Kim’s poetry, not to mention her photography is pure poetry, too. ❣️I have a few new collections I want for Christmas.

Can you spot the kitty cat? 🐈 😂✨New Christmas mug I found for $3! Yay! 😀

~ Reading is always my jam! 💗 Here is a list of some of my autumn reading favorites (September-October-November) with a little snippet to snap review. These are all perfect for curling up with this winter. Something for everyone. I wasn’t able to film a YouTube recap, so I’m wrapping it up here!

  1. Witches by Roald Dahl (sweet, grotesquely funny story of little boy and grandmother who battle evil together!)
  2. Apple Bough by Noel Streatfield (delightful story of the oldest daughter in an extremely artistic family who is finding her place. This was beautiful and deep!)
  3. Kiki’s Delivery Service by Eiko Kandano (sweet, comforting, cozy coming of age fantasy story.)
  4. The Language of Spells by Garrit Weyr (deep story following a family and a dragon through both World Wars – so lovely and thoughtful.)
  5. Thimble Summer by Elizabeth Enright (gorgeous farm family story with beautiful writing!)
  6. The Grey Woman by Elizabeth Gaskell (short, atmospheric story. Ending was a bit rushed, but accessible Victorian literature at its best.)
  7. The Chantry House by Charlotte Mary Yonge (longer Victorian literature with a side of ghost. I really enjoyed this one!)
  8. The Lost Heiress by Roseann’s M. White (lovely, clean historical romance that had a mysterious twist to it. I really enjoyed this one!)
  9. An Enchantment of Ravens by Margaret Rogerson (amazingly written, gorgeous atmospheric fantasy story with deep themes of the emptiness of immortality and more. Romance wasn’t for me, but overall, I loved this.)
  10. Honey for a Women’s Heart by Gladys M. Hunt (a favorite nonfiction reread that was just what I needed to inspire my reading and my home educating!)
  11. Sylvia’s Lovers by Elizabeth Gaskell (gloriously written, heartfelt, heart wrenching story set in an English coastal, whaling village. I’ll read anything Gaskell wrote! She’s my favorite Victorian writer.)
  12. The Mirror Visitor Series by Christelle Dabos (translated from French – fantasy reread that I love for its beautiful, intriguing setting and main character, Ophelia’s revelations about how we see ourselves. The first two books are my favorites.)
  13. Conscious Creativity by Philippe Stanton (a gorgeous photographer’s art philosophy, prompts, inspiration, and ramblings. So inspiring!)
  14. Amish Quilt Shop Series by Isabella Alan (simple and cozy mysteries. When I’m exhausted and need of something light, I enjoy a few cozy, clean mystery authors.)
  15. Full Disclosure by Dee Henderson (Police Detective fiction. This was unique in that Ann, the main investigator was very introverted. A little unrealistic, but I really identified with a lot of her internal processing.)
  16. Jane of Lantern Hill by L.M. Montgomery (I’ve read this multiple times, but this reread was with my four younger children and we all had such a lovely time together. Even my 5 yo listened pretty well!)
  17. Maisie Dobbs Series by Jacqueline Winspear (#4 & #5 in this long series of a female private English investigator in the interwar period. I disliked #3 , so was so glad to enjoy these two! Highly recommend the series!)
  18. Chalice by Robin McKinley (lovely, elemental magic fantasy that enchanted me. Can’t really explain why. A bit darker fantasy, fyi.)
  19. Deerbrook by Harriet Martineau (this was an online buddy read and had some convoluted parts and unloveable characters. However, the philosophical parts were intriguing and the nature writing was amazing. The conversations with my friends made it an interesting read!)
Library 📚 picture book stack! ❣️

~ Walking and nature drives are so wonderful when I take the time. It’s a bit cold for me, but I’m always so rewarded. My hubby is very willing to take back roads and I’m so grateful we live in a beautiful area.

Out driving with hubby! ✨✨✨

How about you? What makes you ‘sing’

currently? ❣️✨💟💜🌲📚☕️🪶🌝❄️🎄❣️

Advent Diaries ~::🎄❄️♥️Page 7♥️❄️🎄::~ PAINT ~ {Day 53}

Our Creator painted this sunrise just for you!

I’ve been thinking randomly about Wonka Vision (from Gene Wilder ‘Charlie and Chocolate Factory’ film) …yes, my brain doesn’t turn off well. 😂 I’m desperate to paint my life with Jesus Vision… seeing all the glorious gifts and beauty around me as Love. And caring enough to share that love, let spill it over and out!

What matters in the deeper experience of contemplation is not the doing and accomplishing. What matters is relationship, the being with. We create holy ground and give birth to Christ in our time not by doing but by believing and by loving the mysterious Infinite One who stirs within. This requires trust that something of great and saving importance is growing and kicking its heels in you.

~Loretta Ross-Gotta

Watch for the Light, p.97

.50 cent notebooks to collage the covers for my SIL’s for Christmas gifts! Did I mention I have 11? SIL’s?! Ha. Better get collaging!

What if, instead of doing something, we were to be something special? Be a womb. Be a dwelling for God. Be surprised.

~Ross-Gotta

Watch for the Light, p. 101

One of my slow Christmas reads for myself this year. We all enjoy this story and the illustrations are just lovely!

We are starting during our Christmas term to use some of the activities in Map Art by Berry & McNeilly as we all are map lovers here. It’s so fun to mix art techniques with imagination. I’m looking forward to the collage maps, especially.

My 12 yo Phoebe’s map ♥️🥰 (used by permission)

They trooped out into the garden and saw the wood all lit up by the westering light as though a thousand candles had been lit upon the trees that stretched their shade deep beyond deep in the dark wood. The water was all aglint too, and the colors of the flowers burned pure and still. The sky was a deep blue-green overhead, and three wild swans were flying upriver to their home. There was no sound in all the world but the beat of the birds’ wings and the soft lapping of the water against the old stone walls. They stood for a moment at the gate at the top of the steps and the peace held them silent.

~Elizabeth Goudge

The Pilgrim’s Inn, p. 99

Advent Diaries ~::🎄❄️♥️Page 5♥️❄️🎄::~ RIVER~ {Day 51}

How happy is the one who does not walk in the advice of the wicked or stand in the pathway with sinners or sit in the company of mockers!

Instead, his delight is in the LORD’s instruction, and he meditates on it day and night.

He is like a tree planted beside flowing streams that bears fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.

Psalm 1:1-3, CSB

The person who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence indeed is the LORD, is blessed. He will be like a tree planted by water: it sends roots out toward a stream, it doesn’t fear when heat comes, and its foliage remains green. It will not worry in a year of drought or cease producing fruit.

Jeremiah 17:7-8, CSB

Not a River

Not like a rolling river,

not like a floating river,

down on my head it comes.

It doesn’t drench me,

it doesn’t quench me,

as long as I am stay warm.

You’re wondering what it is

oh yes, you’re wondering what it is,

It is just the frozen flakes of Joy,

that is what is!

by Ella, my 15 yo daughter 🥰🥹♥️ (used with permission)

Coffee, fairy lights, books, and sunshine ✨

The sweep of this dividing staircase was most beautiful and gracious, and it gave one a feeling of welcome like strong arms held out, the arms of that glowing personality who had welcomed them in. And Ben noticed, though George did not, that the whole structure of the staircase, with the arms held out beneath the upright panel, was like a cross.

Elizabeth Goudge

The Pilgrim’s Inn, p. 90

Advent Diaries ~::🎄❄️♥️Page 4♥️❄️🎄::~ HERB ~ {Day 50}

Soul Soup

•what does

your soul soup need?

what was

cooking, bubbling, freed?

•on the piping hot

cookery range of life

a heart not fraught?

a pinch of healing, less strife?

•are you set too low?

stagnant, add some salt

tweak the recipe, nice & slow

tears simmering wrought

•a delicious mass, savory

turn it up hot

your soup not ordinary

it’s changing and sought

•taste it and see

not a bland hand, but good

what more sprinkling needs be?

stir it, oh spoon, wonderful wood

•be patient, soak herbs in

spice, vegetables, whole lot

perfectly poured, bowl to brim

sweet soul soup served hot

•what does

your soul soup need?

what was

cooking, bubbling, freed?

A. M. Pine 🌲 ♥️

Thrift book haul from last week. See anything interesting? I already have Family Under the Bridge but replacing our PB copy with this hard back. 😌♥️

But Sally did not want to be set free for anything, for it was living itself that she enjoyed. She liked lighting a real fire of logs and fir cones, and toasting bread on an old-fashioned toaster. And she liked the lovely curve of an old staircase and the fun of running up and down it. And she vastly preferred writing a letter and walking with it to the post than using the telephone and hearing with horror her voice committing itself to to things she would never have dreamed of doing if she’d had the time to think. “It’s my stupid brain,” she said to herself. “I like the leisurely things, and taking my time about them. That’s partly why I like children so much, I think. They’re never in a hurry to get on to something else.”

Elizabeth Goudge

The Pilgrim’s Inn , p. 12

♥️How is your week? What things in your life need stirring creatively or spiritually? I’m going to be thinking on these things awhile…

~ Blessings!

Advent Diaries ~ ::🎄❄️♥️Page 3♥️❄️🎄:: ~ PILGRIM ~ {Day 49}

Old Woman of the Here

spent skin of a woman

sojourner of time

passing through land

skirt swinging saggy, a sign

sixty seconds step

sixty minutes lark

twenty-four hours wept

three hundred sixty-five of dark

hourglass of bones & blood

apron-clad keeper of sun

pages turned, ink gone, all mud

pilgrim of life on the run

lantern lights sways

her burdened eyes on horizon

she follows the rickety Way

looking far, deep, for flicker of Son

tick, tock, step, step

crunch of time gravel

under her feet, pounding in head

life’s steps, horror and marvel

~A.M. Pine 🌲♥️

Inspired by favorite poem here~

I’ve been thinking about home and also how as a Christian, I believe, I’m a traveler passing through…so much for contemplation.

“Jerry and Jose,” she said softly, smiling at them, “And I’m Jill. Three J’s. We’ll be happy.”

And the twins, still most extraordinarily well behaved, smiled back at her. They liked the firm clasp of her hands, her even voice, her steady eyes. They knew instinctively that she would always be the same, not hugging them one moment and scolding them the next, and neither for any apparent reason, but reasonable and even-tempered and to be relied upon like the ground beneath their feet.

Elizabeth Goudge

The Pilgrim’s Inn, p. 88

Goodbye 👋 Autumn Mugs
Welcome Christmas 🎄 mugs!
I’ve lately loved working on my reading journal 📓 ♥️

How are you doing? What is on your mind and heart? ♥️ What’s bringing you joy? 🥹

Advent Diaries ~ :: 🎄❄️♥️Page 2♥️❄️🎄 :: ~ LIGHT ~ {Day 48}

Light of lights! All gloom dispelling,

Thou first come to make thy dwelling

Here within our world of sight.

Lord, in pity and in power,

Thou didst in our darkest hour

Rend the clouds and show thy light.

Praise to thee in earth and heaven

Now and evermore be given,

Christ, who art our sun and shield.

Lord, for us thy life thou gavest,

Those who trust in thee thou savest,

All thy mercy stands revealed.

~St Thomas Aquinas

Watch for the Light, p.67

But December, if you choose, if you allow it, can be the trail through the woods that leads to the light, far off in the distance.

The darkness itself offers the gift. Each day, the darkness comes sooner, comes deeper, comes blacker than ink. It draws us in, into our homes, yes, but more so, into our souls.

It invites us: Light a light. Wrap a blanket. Sit by the fire. Stare into the flames, and onto the last dying embers. Consider the coming of Christmas.

Barbara Mahany

Slowing Time, p. 179

For she had learned to really pray. For the first time in her life she had discovered prayer to be not what it had hitherto been to her “the occupation of the praying mind or the sound of the voice praying,” but a ceaseless offering up of the whole personality, of every thought and word and action, as sacrifice.

Elizabeth Goudge

The Pilgrim’s Inn, p. 43

Then Jesus said unto them, Yet a little while is the light with you. Walk while ye have the light, lest darkness comes sooner upon you: for he that walketh in darkness knoweth not whither he goeth.

While ye have light, believe in the light, that ye may be the children of light…

I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness.

John 12:35-36a, 46

Holy Bible, KJV

Monday Ponderings {Day 42}

I have noticed that some of the happiest people are not by nature the strongest, but they are those who love the Lord their Strength with a confident, joyful love; and they are not constantly thinking of themselves and their weakness, nor do they ever dream of not enjoying what He gives them to do, for “the joy of the Lord is [their] strength”, and their Lord is their firm support.

~Amy Carmichael, p. 169, Edges of His Ways

May it be so in me, Lord Jesus! 🙏🏻♥️🌿

•november• {Day 40}

lonely rustle

earthy-smokey wind-singe

flick and flash,

lantern-light over discarded

pumpkin grins

glimpses of red-rich,

berry polka-dots,

full-stop, year stitched

crispy-rattle,

raspy-golden, jeweled

bits that linger, forgotten

in deep sea, blue-black

velvety bracken

birch, bold-brilliant

white-of-hope against greyed-gloom

of shadow-y woodlands, inky

month of all ‘v’s

months, fly straight and true

cawing into my heart

claw the blackness back,

coldness and grim gone

goodness to start anew

close soul-listening

strikes bits of joy

deep-dive within

rustle of faith flames

up once warm again

~ A.M. Pine

Barbara Mahany {Day 38}

It’s a cold, ill, rainy wind that blows no good today. Soooo, of course, that makes me think of books. Ha. Who am I kidding. EVERYTHING makes me think of books. 🙃🤓😌😏😂♥️

I wanted to give you a heads up on a GORGEOUS nonfiction writer I’ve found this past year. Her writing is poetry to me. I’ve almost finished up Slowing Time by her as it’s set up seasonally so I am waiting for the winter section. She is of a different faith tradition than myself, but ties her practice to nature and the seasons so beautifully that I find I can pull out things that speak to me as a Christian.

I think she has only four books, so I hope to collect the last of hers which I’m waiting to find called The Book of Nature.

Have you discovered a new-to-you writer/artist/singer this year?

In other fun today, we are going to be watching this and making our own winter lists and I’m going to be ‘torturing’ 😆 my children with 90’s Christian worship music playlists. My teen years in a nutshell, my friends! 🤪😁♥️ What are you up to today?

Happy Tuesday! May your joy be full…

Soil Work {Day 37}

Love 💕 occasionally reading quickly through the Gospels in KJV…

I jumped on the shovel edge in my daughter’s pastel rainbow crocs. I found myself falling backwards, feet up and over, crocs, scattering. I burst out laughing, after mentally checking my ache-y, forty-something self for injury. I sure hope nobody I know saw me in the front yard of my parent’s home. 🤪😏👀 I planted the bulbs with my five year old as he stared at me with wonder. “Ok, ok, kid,” I thought, “it’s pretty unusual to see your mother shoveling and sweating, not to mention falling over.” Ha. 😂

We just finished this as a read aloud. We all adored it! 🕯️🪔🕯️

I’ve been thinking about Jesus’ parable of the sower {Matthew 13:1-9} in relation to being a mother. Could it be that the enrichment of their soul earth is our primary, creative work? Our magnum opus? It’s sweaty, unseen, thankless soul-shoveling work. We add manure, pull out weeds, we prepare the soil with truth, beauty, and rich, good things. Why? By faith, slowly, we trust that eventually it will be ready to receive the seed of God’s Word.

My daughter made bread and I used up leftover rice for chicken, veggie, rice soup… 🥣 ♥️

Weaving in and out of this preparation, we grow in our gardening skills ourselves. We limp around on our bruised backsides 😏, callused palms smarting, and keep strewing bits of life and light. We stretch and use all the God has given us. RM’s song “Wildflower” stuck with me deeply after it was first released. He is speaking on his creativity journey, but the idea of growing a lasting, perennial ‘flowerwork’ instead of an instantaneously burnt out flaming firework. The bright and flashy is gone in a second. Long, lasting work takes a kind of death and humilty. Once the seed is tucked into the earth, it’s a work of long trust and patience. Motherhood and our creative work both need this mustard-seed faith and fallow season.

“Flower field, that’s where I’m at

Open land that’s where I’m at

No name, that’s what I have

No shame, I’m on my grave.”

~RM, English translation, Genius.com

The character Isobel in the YA fantasy, An Enchantment of Ravens, found out through her painting, the stark emptiness and abject horror of immortality. It’s not glamorous to work, live, grow old, and die while serving, creating, and loving, but it’s human. The created of a Creator creates. That makes it enough. It’s prayer and worship. Thankfulness by fullness of being. So much around us is so empty and vacuous. Without true meaning. A life of meaning means toil, back breaking, long-haul work with faith.

“I ask where you could be right now

Where you go, where’s your soul

Yo, where’s your dream?”

~ RM

Four years of reading journals! Blue sparrow one is my new one… ♥️♥️♥️I left Goodreads and have loved this tactile way of creatively engaging with my reading.

So, where do our dreams go? They are still right here. Transformed into something human AND Spirit-powered. They may change form, a weaving in and out all that we are doing. Seasons of our servanthood with the gifts we’ve been given promise new morning mercies. Just as I can surely count on the perennial return of my mom’s tulips and daffodils, I can trust this slow, quiet blooming process is working in my children and in me, too. Thanks be to God.

Sweet, dirty little feet…💕💕💕

How about you? How do you view relationships and creativity? How are you cultivating a culture of creative work while maintaining closeness and connections to your faith, family, and friends? I’d love to hear any thoughts! I’m still trying to flesh out what this all means…

Word Salad {Day 36}

Hello, my old friends, I’ve {finally} come to talk with you all again! 😄🖤

These last few weeks have been a mash up of glorious warm, leaf crunching, rattle-and-rolling weather with a side of gorgeous rain. November is definitely here in all her glory. The clouds and sky have been spectacular!

I’ve been hunkered down a bit with family, homeschool, and church responsibilities, so my online fun 😅 has had to be kept to a minimum. I’ve still been reading, and it’s been a lovely respite to our full and busy days. A few of our outside responsibilities are lighter during the last part of November and December so that will be nice to catch my breath.

Half a moon! 😌

I’ve been struggling a bit to get the jumble up here *taps brain* to down here *taps blank page* and all I’ve got is my ‘word salads’ as I call them. I’ve been dumping impressions, ideas, words, what’s going on in the moment, etc etc etc into my ‘dump/empty’ brain journal. It’s kinda all I got currently. I see a few phrases in these riots of ramblings that I might want to use/explore later so it’s a start, right?! Ray Bradbury loved his lists and worked on stories from them YEARS later. I’m counting on this Bradbury Magic to transfer to me. 😂 Of course, Mr. Bradbury wrote a 1,000 + words everyday no matter what. ☺️😍🥰

I’ve been thinking a lot about mirrors after revisiting The Mirror Visitor Series, how Ophelia can only travel through them when she sees her true self in the mirror, no disguises or wishing for something different. It’s been tying into the opening chapters of my reread of A Circle of Quiet by Madeleine L’Engle. She’s speaking on creativity/writing here:

If I thought I had to say it better than anybody else, I’d never start. Better or worse is immaterial. The thing is that it has to be said; by me, ontologically. We each have to say it, to say it our own way. Not of our own will, but as it comes out through us. Good or bad, great or little: that isn’t what human creation is about. It is that we have to try; to put it down in pigment, or words, or musical notations, or we die. ~ L’Engle, p. 28, A Circle of Quiet

Commonplace journal. 📓 A beautiful, new-to-me, song!
Sophie 🥰🥰🥰

How ‘bout you? How are you doing? Any creative threads to follow lately? I’ll leave with a few more photos and a wish and prayer that your week is full of true Joy no matter our circumstances. ♥️🖤♥️

Highly recommend!
Beautiful 🤩
“Exit, pursued by a bear.” 😂
A favorite spot for prayer and contemplation. 🖤😌🙏🏻 So many friends and family in heavy circumstances.
We make our own fun here. 😂
I want to read this whole book! A friend is reading bits at our Charlotte Mason co op and it’s gorgeous.

Happy Monday, my friends. A new week, with no mistakes in it yet. ♥️

“And straightway the father of the child cried out and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief.”

Mark 9:24