”There’s green in that wood yet. Look at it.” 🌿 Happy Resurrection! 🌿 {Day 5}

“That one?” she said. “Is that one quite alive-quite?” Dickson curved his wide smiling mouth.

“It’s as wick as you or me,” he said; and Mary remembered that Martha had told her that “wick” meant “alive” or “lively.”

“I’m so glad it’s wick!” she cried out in her whisper. “I want them all to be wick. Let us go around the garden and count how many wick ones there are.”

~ The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett, illustrated by Tasha Tudor

I’m so glad there’s green, life, and hope YET! Spring is here! Thank You, Jesus!

🌿🌱🌲🌳🪴🍃🌷☀️

“…something more vital than friendly concern…” {Day 3}

“The face of the enigmatic Jew seemed weighted with an almost insupportable burden of anxiety. The eyes, narrowed as if in resigned acceptance of some inevitable catastrophe, stared straight ahead toward Jerusalem. Perhaps the man, intent upon larger responsibilities far removed from this pitiable little coronation farce, wasn’t really hearing the racket at all.

So deeply absorbed had Demetrius become, in his wide-eyed study of the young Jew’s face, that he too was beginning to be unmindful of the general clamor and confusion. He moved along with inching steps, slanting his body against the weight of the pressing crowd, so close now to the preoccupied rider that with one stride he could have touched him.

Now there was a temporary blocking of the way, and the noisy procession came to a complete stop. The man on the white donkey straightened, as if roused from a reverie, drew a deep sigh, and slowly turned his head. Demetrius watched, with parted lips and a pounding heat.

The meditative eyes, drifting about over the excited multitude, seemed to carry a sort of wistful compassion for these helpless victims of an aggression for which they thought he had a remedy. Everyone was shouting, shouting-all but the Corinthian slave, whose throat was so dry he couldn’t have shouted, who had no inclination to shout, who wished they would all be quiet, quiet! It wasn’t the time or place for shouting. Quiet! This man wasn’t the sort of person one shouted at, or shouted for. Quiet! That was what this moment called for-Quiet!

Gradually the brooding eyes moved over the crowd until they came to rest on the strained, bewildered face of Demetrius. Perhaps, he wondered, the man’s gaze halted there because he alone-in all this welter of hysteria-refrained from shouting. His silence singled him out. The eyes calmly appraised Demetrius. They neither widened or smiled; but, in some indefinable manner, they held Demetrius’s a grip so firm it was almost a physical compulsion. The message they communicated was something other than sympathy, something more vital than friendly concern; a sort of stabilizing power that swept away all such negations as slavery, poverty, or any other afflicting circumstance. Demetrius was suffused with the glow of this curious kinship. Blind with sudden tears, he elbows through the throng and reached the roadside.”

The Robe, by Lloyd C. Douglas, p. 73-74

Happy Good Friday, my friends. A horrible, yet beautiful day I remember as a Christ-follower. I recently was privileged to read with three friends a stirring historical fiction centered around Marcellus, a Roman soldier and his slave, Demetrius. We follow Marcellus as he crucifies Jesus and wins his homespun robe in a gambling match. Douglas seeps us in the rich, historical setting of first century Rome and ultimately, we walk away with a profound sense of wonder. We who touch the presence of Jesus are never the same.

I was deeply moved by this novel and it made me rethink how I live day to day. How would my life look if I actively acknowledged His real presence right in and around me? I highly recommend this book! ♥️

A beautiful hymn we are singing in our homeschool co op has been hanging around in my heart as I think of what my Lord’s death and Resurrection mean to me. I used to love Christmas the most, but slowly as I’ve lived more life, the hope, spring-freshness, and LIFE to Easter have become a most meaningful time for me.

Jesus told her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die…”

John 11:25-26a, NLT

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It’s ok to be always beginning… {Day 1}

My daughter and I admiring the rays we just got to pet! 😍♥️

Hello Friends! New fresh month, no mistakes in it yet! I’m hopping on to share that I’m going to attempt to do a bit of a 100 Day Project here! I’m excited to have a little something to challenge myself with and a place to dump all the beautiful ideas I’m gleaning. I have no format for what I will be sharing, it may be little more than a brain dump some days🤪😅, lists, a photo, a quote, and so on. My hope is that it will encourage and inspire you. What am I doing with the little I’ve been given? That is the question I’m asking myself currently. ☺️♥️🌿

Soooo, what prompted this plan? A couple things! My oldest child, my daughter, is engaged to be married later this year! 😳😭😍♥️Nothing like a family wedding to celebrate and work towards in multiple areas. Secondly, my sister kindly gifted me this book and we are going through it together:

I’m already a pretty established journal-er, but wanted to step it up a notch! By journaling HERE, my poor dark, quiet blog friend, 🤣 and using it as a catalyst for little writing creative projects. I see these as offerings of worship. 💜🌿

My goals and poetry writing notebook. Yes, weird combination, but it’s working currently. 😅💜 I found some fun graphics on Pinterest to color in as I go!

I also love my little to do/gratitude daily journal so will be keeping up with that! Another strange combo that works well for me!

My absolute favorite journaling is my reading journal and I have two buddy reads beginning this month! 😍💜

My reading journal spread where I will paste my April read book covers and short review! 💚🌿
New this year has been favorite reads by month! 📚
Buddy Read #1 📚♥️
Buddy Read #2 📚♥️

I will be using the prompts in The Book of Alchemy and also continuing The Body Revelation questions, both with my sister. ☺️♥️Those are most likely private prayers/entries etc that go into my spiritual journal.

How ‘bout you? How do you ‘begin again’? How do you breathe life into creative or life projects? Having some sort of paper/stickers/glue and pens always motivates me! 🤷🏻‍♀️😂♥️ I’ll leave you with a quote that I saw that has me thinking deeply!

“…they fear love because it creates a world they can’t control.”

•George Orwell•

😬😳☠️😍♥️💜 Chew on that, my friends! Bless you all!

Walking in close fellowship…

Enoch lived in close fellowship with God for another 300 years…

…walking in close fellowship with God…

…then one day he disappeared, because God took him…

Excerpts from Genesis 5:22-24, NLT

Thinking on living in close fellowship with God for 300 + years! Then basically walking up to Heaven! What a life! What a prayer. 🙏🏻 May I live and walk in close fellowship with my God.♥️

Trying to move my feet literally and spiritually move my spirit by seeking after my Lord wholeheartedly! Started a fun little walking challenge for myself. Steps-for-Books! For every 15 miles, I can buy a book over $5. I already earned one, but haven’t purchased it yet! I’m really enjoying the Strava app my son got me into for tracking.

My sister and I have been slowly going through The Body Revelation by Alisa Keaton and it is my favorite health book so far that I’ve ever read! I love all the Scripture and focus on the Lord, yet the love and compassion of healing ❤️‍🩹 inside and out. I’ve been through a lot of learning not to stuff my emotions down, but to lovingly deal with them. My go-to-unhealthy habit has been eating my way through emotional stress or extremes in various areas. I’m facing myself honestly here as I’ve lost and regained so much weight over the years, done so many different things to try to deal with all the feels. Learning to be compassionate with myself by gently working through things instead of stuffing them with excessive food, books, entertainment is so hard but good. I’m learning to just having patience and be consistently obedient to the inner work that needs doing.

How is your New Year starting off? I know it’s cliche to talk about health in January, but it’s something I’m determined to prayerfully, patiently surrender to this year. I’m looking forward to being apart of the February World Peace Poem project again! I think this is my 5th? year participating! Sending out about a poem a day to others. ♥️ Do you have any fun projects on the horizon?

Monday Ponderings 🖤

Golden gone
Gathered glimmers
Wood whispers
Weathered whirls
Feathering flew
Flickering fire
Unveiling ushered
Ugly uniqueness
Jay of blue jabber
Juxtaposition joy
Solemn still
Stalk slithers
Miraculous moment
Marvelous million
Soliloquy of stick, stone
Smoke sneaking
Pine prayers
Peace paupers
Caw cemetery
Crunch crackle
Heart honey-honed.
Heart hollowed heavenward.

A.M.Pine ~ 🌲♥️

Quote to Remember 🩵

I sometimes think the worst thing a young person can feel is when you can find no answer to the question of what you are supposed to do with this life you’ve been given. At moments you’re aware of it balanced on your tongue, but not what comes next. Something like that. I can now say that another version of that happens in old age, when it occurs to you that since you’ve lived this long you must have learned something, so you open your eyes before dawn and think: What is it that I’ve learned, what is it I want to say?

Niall Williams, This Is Happiness, p. 13-14

Currently 🍂🍂🍂

…let your compassion come to us quickly, for we have become very weak.

Excerpt from Psalm 79:8, CSB

Sunday evening bonfires…

I love finding random journaling prompts on Pinterest and really enjoy looking back at lists I’ve made!

Currently: 🍂

Reading…

My main focus this month is dipping into my massive stack of Victorian literature (one Victorian inspired in that stack!)for an online event called Victober! Community reading of literature published in the UK during Queen Victoria’s reign {1837-1901}. I set aside many other things to be apart of this lovely reading focus. It’s honestly become a highlight of my year for the last few years! I’m reading poetry from Tennyson, Emily Bronte, Oscar Wilde, and George MacDonald. I’ve dipped into Queen Victoria’s childhood diaries a teeny bit, too. I’m slowly rereading Our Mutual Friend. My favorites have been the drama in Charlotte Mary Yonge’s The Three Brides (Kindle) about three newlywed SIL’s thrown together under their new invalid widowed MIL, Shirley by Charlotte Bronte, and Return of the Native by Thomas Hardy with the audiobook read by Alan Rickman.

I’m supposed to be reading Niall Williams’ This Is Happiness with my IRL friends, but got distracted by the Victorians! 🤣

I’m also dipping into various things for study and to keep up the homeschooling co op classes I’m facilitating, mom’s group, a writing commitment and our own homeschool. The opening chapter of The Medieval Mind of C.S. Lewis was fascinating and so lovely.

A little book haul from a HUGE, fabulous used bookstore that I had only 30 minutes to peruse. 😉

Watching…

I’m on a bit of a social media purge so missing my Booktube watching, 🤣 but I did watch “Harry Potter and The Sorcerer’s Stone” with two of my older kids. It’s the only one of the movies I truly love.

Playing…

I honestly love my journaling. They bring me SO much joy. 🤩

Trying…

I’m ‘trying’ to find balance?! with all our outside activities, homeschooling, cultivation of relationships, and taking care of myself. It’s not working well 😅🥲, but one has to have something to keep aiming for even if they miss continually. 🙃

Nature walk to examine a “shaggy bark” hickory tree. ♥️

Looking forward to…

Continuing Victober and hopefully watching the BBC miniseries of “Our Mutual Friend” this month?! and next probably. It’s long!

Dreading…

Hmmm, deadlines are necessary evils, but they can be stressful for me. Leadership is stretching for me. Unfinished household projects. The great clothing change-out. The usual. 😅

Obsessing Over…

All things Victorian! I made these recently! It was difficult, but so fun! I’ve loved noticing one of my favorite autumn things…glancing in the rear view mirror and seeing the leaves swirl up, dance, come ‘alive’!

Learning…

So much through facilitating our co op highschoolers through The Divine Comedy and realizing that worry can be pride, I’m saying I know more than God. 😬🫣😅🙏🏻

Drinking…

I’ve been making half pumpkin spice flavored coffee with regular dark blend and it’s so great! I drink it black and it’s just a hint of pumpkin flavor. I don’t loooove flavored coffees, but this is gooood. 🎃

Loving…

My hubby and I took a 4 day trip north in celebration of our 23rd anniversary which was in September. We enjoyed history and nature together!

Hating (or rather Broken Up About)…

All the relational tensions, loved ones going through illnesses, marital pain, financial stress and just the general feeling of the absence of love 💕 permeating the air. 😞🙏🏻♥️Oh, Lord, come!

I love Hawk Weed?! 🧡🧡🧡

Starting…

Revamping my prayer time again! Needed something fresh! Journaling and alternating spots I’m reading in the Bible. Old Testament, New Testament, and Psalms. Currently added a Proverbs of the Day! Love finding the one that matches the day of the month! ❤️🙏🏻

Thinking…

About our life’s work?! and about the resurrection of my poetry scribblings and collage art, what I need to sacrifice to make it happen. Thinking about the movie “ Dead Poets Society”, which I watched for the first time a couple months ago. 🥲

Feeling…

Not sure. 🤔 Overwhelmed a bit 😵‍💫😉😬😅, but also inspired by the gorgeous autumn weather and all the lovely knowledge and life ripe for the picking. It’s right here for the taking.☺️♥️

Praying for…

My heart to be knit closer than ever to my Jesus and a listening heart to be wide open for others and for all the beauty here and now in this moment. For all the suffering near to me and far from me. 😞♥️🙏🏻

How about you? What’s currently beating in your heart? Let me know your answers to these! ♥️🍂Happiest October! 🎃 🦇 🕷️ 🕸️ 🍁

✏️Heartfelt Home Education 📚|| Check-In September 2025 (among other things) 🧮🦋

Brush Drawing class in our Charlotte Mason co op!

September begins and now already ends…🙃🤪

It’s a strange feeling to be glad for their wings, but sad that my older children’s faces aren’t peering at me as I read aloud. Bittersweet. Three down, four to savor! 🥲

Our year has begun well, kind of on “a wing and a prayer sort of way”, but with a gentle hopefulness.🌾

I think one of our favorite moments so far have been continuing a reread through the Little House Series (we are waiting on the audiobook for These Happy Golden Years), puzzles, and traveling to the site of Little House in the Big Woods for a Laura Ingalls Wilder Festival. A bit touristy, but lovely all the same. Now we’ve been getting into the tv series from the public library and it’s bringing back my childhood nostalgia of rushing home from my little private school for an episode with snack. 🥹♥️

My 4 remaining students…

We’ve also enjoyed jumping into our Charlotte Mason co op with both feet and just soaking in all the riches the other mothers have prepared for us! Shakespeare (King Henry V), folk song/hymn, Composer (John Williams!), Picture Study (Camille Pissarro!), Clay Modeling, Swedish Drill, Microbiology, and my favorite, Nature Study (we are using a lovely book called Sundial on the Seasons by Hal Borland). I’m helping with Highschool Literature (The Divine Comedy! – stretching me, let me tell you!), Poetry (Alfred Lord Tennyson), and the younger students Geography co leading with another mom.

What richness! What a gift!

Our Nature Study mom recommended this book!
Camille and Sophie 🐈
Puzzles and audiobooks!
Swoon. So much beauty all around us! 🤎

My personal goals and projects were going SO well in June & July, but I fell off the habit wagon 😅 in August after SO many family things. I’m struggling to keep up on health, writing, pen pals, crafting goals & stuff. Anyone else? I have some outside obligations that I’m prioritizing (maybe TOO many?) and I’m struggling with very little mojo to keep up my personal things. I end up reading 📖 😅ALOT and watching people talk about reading. 🙃I ❤️‍🔥 Booktube! Any help on how to tackle getting back into these life giving things WHILE homeschooling? 🤪🫣😵‍💫😍

We’ve been doing a lot of nature hikes and they are SO wonderful! We will switch more to library visits when the cold hits. I really want to try more cold weather jaunts this year because I have no little babies anymore. 😆♥️
Interesting economics book I previewed!

What did you love about your toe-dipping into the ‘25-‘26 home educational year? We have sooo many lovely books and things on the docket and I’m struck by the immense blessings at me and my children’s fingertips. Who knows what will be in all the pages, behind the door to the natural world, and in the relationships we will form? ❤️‍🔥🌿I wait prayerfully and with great anticipation. ♥️🌿

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Coffee & Ink: ~be small, drive slow~

•starting my autumn 🍂 stack of reads•

tucked myself into the smallest corner of Dunkin’

cast, humble, kneel, prostrate

be a dewdrop

drive slow

savor flipping sweaters at Goodwill

thank the lady for noticing my butterfly tote

be a dust mote

drive slow

eyes close, commend my spirit to God

swirl the ice of my latte, sip

be a bubble

drive slow

smile about ridiculous puns written on paper plate to hubby

touch, smile wide, look up, look down, listen deeply

be a crumb

drive slow

keep scribbling with dull, cheap Amazon pencil

quiet and calm yourself

be a salt grain

drive slow

the dipped not drenched sumac

the crumble-y, yeast-y clouds

be a kernel

drive slow

mind your own business and butterflies

hum along with the hummingbirds

be a bean

drive slow

keep wishing on the still-here-swallows

wave goodbye and good luck to the geese

be a seed

drive slow

no place to go

know your God-go, Spirit-stay

be a pebble

drive slow

A.M.Pine 🌲♥️

•continuing this beautifully written, ‘quiet’ story•

Consider: Resurrection 🌼

Do you ever feel stuck? I was recently struck by how stuck I am, this overwhelming sense of not living in the joy and resurrection power of the Lord Jesus. I was actually listening to an audiobook, about the fictional and unflappable Mrs. Pollifax. In the first of this novel series, the widowed, aging Mrs. Pollifax, questions her worth and what she is doing with her life. Her solution is to go and do something she has always been interested in. Join the CIA! 😂 I was struck to the quick about my wallowing, woe-is-me attitudes. Where is the resurrection power being lived out in me? Why am I hiding? Why am I cowering? Worrying? Trying to control my circumstances?

His divine power has given us everything required for life and godliness through the knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.

2 Peter 1:3, CSB

These verses in 2 Peter and Wendell Berry’s poem Manifesto: The Mad Farmer Liberation Front, challenges me to live fully and wholly. To live like there is something beyond myself and my woes. 🪴🪴🪴

So, friends, every day do something that won’t compute. Love the Lord. Love the world. Work for nothing. Take all that you have and be poor. Love somebody who does not deserve it.

-Wendell Berry 🌿

I don’t want to be worry-driven, short-fused, and impatient. I want to ‘dwell in possibility’, living simply, patiently with others, myself, and the Lord. I want to rest in my daily ‘round and find my delight again in listening, learning, deeply loving. No need for fretting, guilty-thought trains, or shoulda-woulda-coulda junk. Pay attention. Walk and work out your salvation with fear and trembling. Live with an ‘expectant attention’ (mishmash from Charlotte Mason, Amy Carmichael, and Scripture) and practice living resurrection.

~first time making hot cross buns in honor of Good Friday~

A thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I have come so that they may have life and have it in abundance.

John 10:10 CSB 🌷

Ask questions that have no answers.

Invest in the millennium. Plant sequoias.

~Wendell Berry ☕️

Laughter is immeasurable.Be joyful

though you have considered all the facts.

~Wendell Berry 🪺

Take the first step, Oh my soul…♥️🌿

I’m determined in my heart 💜 to choose again (and again and again) Jesus’ joy and resurrection power. Just making conscious choices that I know help me pay attention and relax into the Lord. Prioritizing my quiet time. Going outside. Holding online things very lightly, getting dressed in comfortable clothing I love, doing a little summer mom learning project with a IRL friend, taking good care of myself and my family, finishing little projects I love, and doing small, short trips. Not giving into overconsumption in any area of my life – frantic reading, buying random stuff, food, media, but a soaking in the Life-Giving Abundance of Jesus!

You reveal the path of life to me;
in your presence is abundant joy;
at your right hand are eternal pleasures.

Psalm 16:11 CSB

•heart, resurrect•

not hard, just

a deep death, rise again

chip corroded life-rust

if not now, when?

broken, now bloody birth

owner determines worth

who’s are you?

name, not what you do

down you lie

heart, flat you die

rise soul, into air

barn-swallowed by His care

A.M. Pine 🌲♥️

Consider: Shadows ⛅️

I will give you the treasures of darkness and riches from secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD. I am the God of Israel, who calls you by your name.

Isaiah 45:3, CSB

And as they sang, the fear and the suffering of the long winter seemed to rise like a dark cloud and float away on the music. Spring had come. The sun was shining warm, the winds soft, and the green grass growing.

Laura Ingalls Wilder, The Long Winter

Shadows and coolness, Lord,

Art Thou to me;

Cloud of my soul, lead on,

I follow Thee.

What though the hot winds blow,

Fierce heat beats up below?

Fountains of water flow-

Praise, praise to Thee.

Clearness and glory, Lord,

Art Thou to me;

Light of my soul, lead on,

I follow Thee.

All through the moonless night,

Making its darkness bright,

Thou Art my Heavenly Light-

Praise, praise to Thee.

Shadow and shine art Thou,

Dear Lord, to me;

Pillar of cloud and fire,

I follow Thee.

What though the way is long,

In Thee my heart is strong,

Thou art my joy, my song –

Praise, praise to Thee.

Amy Carmichael, Edges of His Ways

I’ve been thinking about shadows. Without the darkness of life, how can we see the light? It’s easy to forget my deep need of Jesus when things are smooth and relatively calm. I love strolling under cloud shadows and how they seemingly race across the road. The sun bursts out eventually, drenching all that was dim for a moment. I want to remember that even though my back is bent with my burdens, He is there with me, His presence making them light. How are you today? Weary and heavy-laden? Under dark shadows of life? He has given us His divine power for everything pertaining to life and godliness. The Light flickers and flares in the shadows. ♥️🌿

dense shadows
blindfolding
dark drinks hope
strike match
flicker of faithlight
look straight
into the eyes
of Shadow
arrow of The Light
slices through

A.M. Pine 🌲♥️

Happy April Eve! 🌿✨

Hello, Friends! 🌷🌷🌷Happy Spring!

I’m excited to start a new little ‘something something’ here. Just as we celebrate National Poetry Month, Letter Writing Month, (thanks for telling me, Kim!), Easter, and soak in the earth coming alive. A month to celebrate newness, resurrection, and the wheel of seasons turning again. I have a few things I’m simmering, so I hope you are as encouraged and inspired as I am about a freshness blowing through the windows…

How ‘bout you? Anything brewing in your heart? 🌿🌷✨